i said i have to study (which is true). but, if i really wanted to go, i would have. or if it was lekim that asked me, i would have. easily. but i said no.
why? because i don't like him. i don't like him and i don't want to be with him. and i don't want anymore intimate time with him. i want everything that happened between us to subside because i don't ever want it to come about again. we can be friends, but we can't be friends.
why? because of lekim. he's already made it completely clear how he feels about that. and even though it seems wrong to try to completely avoid engineer, i care about lekim
sigh. once more for the record: i'm stupid.
*i'm going back to lowercase. starting now.
