He said this to me today. I can't stop thinking about what he means.
Well, it's obvious what he means. But what does he mean?
Is he gonna be an asshole to me until I just don't give a shxt about him anymore? Give me a series of "tests" I've already failed half of, maybe? Or is he planning on sticking with me, he just doesn't want people to walk all over me? I lowkey hope it's the last one.
I'm trying to not even dissect this or anything he says anymore because it's not worth it. I have other things to stress over, please believe. But every time I think I have it all figured out, he goes and messes it up and I'm confused again. And guess what? I love that. Keeps me on my toes. Every time I think he's horrible and want to cut him off, he knows exactly what to say to make me remember how great he is.
That's why we go together. I'm horrible and great, too.
Ps. I didn't do well on my test. I'm trying so hard not to cry; my GPA, scholarship, and worst fear (disappointing my parents) was riding on that test. And I'm gonna be selfish and say no one is around to console me. But, I'm trying out this tough skin thing. I'm just gonna pray.
